Yeah, I thought so.

The confirmation finally came from a friend – my ex, who wasted 6 years of my life while IN relationship and another 5 just trying to unf*ck my brain, met the woman he’s seeing in December of 2022.

Remember, when we broke up it was because he didn’t want to “cohabitate or marry”, did not want to be fully committed, did not want a relationship at all.  He said repeatedly that he wasn’t dating or interested in dating, but started dating right away.  In March of 2023, he had sent me a screenshot that included his recently used emojis, consisting of kissy faces and hearts.

These lies keep stacking up, and that date just made everything come crashing down.  Nothing was true.  None of it.  Trying to maintain a friendship – lie.  Having me around was absolving him of his guilt for lying through his drunken teeth, and that was it.  He was dating the whole time he was telling me he had no interest in dating, and he was “falling in love” with her and finally pulled the trigger after we wen’t 1000% no contact/blocking in July of 2024.  He had still been trying to keep me in his life until that point.

I knew, but I didn’t.

I wonder if he realizes the damages his lies have done?  Great – glad you were able to find a person better suited to your life – mhm, Ok.  *bows out completely un-gracefully*

When will this nonsense stop replaying in my head?