That Little Girl Is Me.

I found a therapist in 2019 after several on-again, off-again bouts with my now ex-boyfriend. I really felt like my own childhood trauma was preventing me from having the relationship I very much wanted, and was willing to put in the work to figure that all out. I had not succeeded in my 53 years – so I felt it was long past time to have a very serious look in the mirror. My therapist suggested we try EMDR Therapy (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing), which led me to this memory. Me, as a little girl, standing in the doorway watching my father pull out of the driveway for the last time. I was 6 years old. I was a daddy’s girl. We, my brother and I, had been shuffled back and forth for every-other weekend visitation for quite a while already. I remember crying, feeling devastated, and from that…

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