Down she goes

He’s with someone new. I imagine he felt like this when he saw me with someone new back in 2016. The only difference is, he didn’t walk away. He made it his mission to get me back. To make me promises he knew he couldn’t keep, and make me choose.…

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That Little Girl Is Me.

I found a therapist in 2019 after several on-again, off-again bouts with my now ex-boyfriend. I really felt like my own childhood trauma was preventing me from having the relationship I very much wanted, and was willing to put in the work to figure that all out. I had not…

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It’s all a blur

I’m not sure if it’s the past or the future – maybe both. My head and heart are suspended in this traumatic injury response mode. It doesn’t make any sense. Perhaps there were just too many events in the past year for me to cope or function normally. I would…

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Full Hearted Fantasies

If I could send a message to all men, it would be this. Don’t date, don’t talk to women, don’t even attempt to be anything more than friends with a woman if you are incapable of relinquishing your full heart. Don’t dangle a carrot in front of her, don’t use…

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Love her.

I saw this on facebook the other day and it resonated so deeply with me. In all my years of loving a man, I have yet to meet a man who is committed to understanding how I need to be loved. I always felt like I was committed to learning…

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